Nothing beats not knowing what's gonna happen next

Firstly, I am alive. No free internet in my hotel in Vegas means that I spent a lot of time writing in my journal instead of online like usual. But I'm back home now, reveling in the new normality my life is taking shape in. So I reluctantly left home (which means Berto) and flew to Vegas for a week of vacation. The flights were decent and landing in both Denver and Vegas after dark was pretty fun. I never realized how close the Vegas airport was to...well...Vegas. It seems like you should run into a few of those hotels on the strip when landing, but it's still a pretty cool experience when landing at night. We stayed at the Stratosphere, which was pretty cool, but for as much money as we invested in our room, a little free internet would have been appreciated. Oh, well. I lived.

The week wasn't as exciting as I was thinking it would be, but that was bound to happen with my mind all the way back in Kansas City and my body in Las Vegas. I did a little gambling, some drinking and some roasting in the sun, but mostly all I wanted to do was eat, sleep, write and text Berto. Vacation to me is relaxation. I wasn't too terribly thrilled that the others I was with kept insisting on going out. I went to a concert on Tuesday night at a club called Wasted Space in the Hard Rock Hotel and that was enjoyable, but most of the other nights I mostly just watched TV from the comfort of my hotel bed.

I got sick on Wednesday, which I'm still trying to recover from...and that made most of the rest of the week pretty crappy. We rented a car and drove to the Grand Canyon on Thursday, but I didn't want to pay for the tour so I slept in the car for three hours. That was just another thing the others weren't happy about, but what they called me ignoring them was actually me avoiding unnecessary pain since it hurt to breathe and swallow and talk. I generally prefer to minimize pain, so I just listened to my iPod and texted people most of the trip.

My last night in Vegas I went up the tower at my hotel and took pics and hung out for a while just taking in the sights. Vegas really is a pretty cool place, but I suspect it's better with a significant other or at least with friends who have the same ideas of what vacation should be like as you do. I may go back one day, but only on a trip with a certain boy. :-P

My trip home was a little annoying, but thankfully not terribly eventful. Being sick on planes is just not cool. All the pressure changing with a cold and congestion just makes the whole ordeal quite uncomfortable. I got to Denver just fine on Saturday morning, and flying over the snow-covered Rockies was nice, but then I was stuck in the airport for three extra hours before I got to fly home to KC. At least they had free internet, so I entertained myself by talking online and listening to music (much like I do when bored at school).

I got home and Berto picked me up at the airport. It was a nice homecoming since I had missed him so much. We managed to make it through the blizzard that was swirling around KC and spent the night hanging out and such while the snow settled. Sunday I dragged Berto around to see people I knew, including Aaron, his mom and sister Ami then my sister Sarah. We also caught a showing of Duplicity and after a doctor's appointment on Monday morning, we drove back to Rolla. It's been weird being back cause all of my mutual free time with Berto is spent with him just sort of marveling at our relationship. It sounds silly, but I think we're both enjoying the newness of being together.

Anyway, I've just been sitting around work trying to stay awake after taking Benadryl and this was on my list of things to do for the world. :) There's really not much else going on in my life at the moment, but I'll be sure to share if something new does happen and it's appropriate for this sort of sharing. I'm gonna go back to listening to A New Found Glory and drifting through work til I get to go home to my boy. :) Til later...

Songs to consider:

Taken Back By You (A New Found Glory)
Boulders (A New Found Glory)

It gains the more it gives

The flu strikes again! I blame myself really. I said just two or three days ago that I hadn't gotten sick yet this year and viola! Flu. Sigh. It's alright though, I'm working through it. I'm properly drugged and such and until it passes, that's about all I can do. No need to drag my feet through the mud just because I can.

I guess I'm going home again this weekend. And it's just funny how the whole time I'm there, I've got something to do. My mom has this work dinner thing at some new bar and grill place and wants me to go with her, then Angels is having a big party Friday night for their first birthday, so I'll probably go there too. Then Saturday I'm supposed to go to the shooting range to fire a gun and play with targets. There will be pictures, so if there's a good one, I'll put it up for all to see. (I've never even held a gun, so this'll be a first). Then Saturday night I'm going to a birthday party for someone I met the last time I went home. She promised not to throw up this time, so I guess I have to give her another chance. Heh. So yeah...that's my already planned out weekend. Somewhere in there I will need to teach my mom how to use wireless internet (oh joy) and maybe even manage to clean some laundry or do some homework (so not going to happen). Then it's back to Rolla for three days of class and another SUB program. Then St. Pat's!!!

The concert is going to be really big this year and since I'm a director I am part of the crew. I'm cool with it though cause it's backstage access with the bands and all the get togethers for the weekend. I'm looking forward to that side of a concert. After St. Pat's break is over, it's another four days of class before going back to KC again...

I have a doctor's appt. on the 20th, then I'm supposed to go to the Hollywood Undead/Senses Fail concert that night, but I'm not sure about that yet. Then I'm flying out to Vegas on Saturday night with Stacy and her boyfriend John and we'll be meeting our friend Kristi out there. I'm hoping it'll be an awesome week. We're staying at the Stratosphere Hotel and Casino (the one with the roller coasters on top of the tower) and we'll be going out to the Grand Canyon for a night to camp (which is exciting). Only six more weeks of class after that. I'm not really looking forward to anything involving April or May, so yeah...blah.

Shrug. I'm still writing, so you can still check out stuff on the website I listed a few posts back. Guess that's it. :)

Songs to consider:

Goodbye To You (Michelle Branch)
All The Things You Said (t.A.T.u.)
Let Go (Frou Frou)

If I only could, make a deal with God

It's been an interesting week. Coming back from a conference on a Tuesday really does throw a person off in regards to the rest of the week. I've been straddling the border between being sick and being indifferent. Those two really don't go together at all, but those are about all I can come up with for this week. It's strange, but oddly, I don't care (go figure).

I finished rewatching Bones...again. Now I'm thinking of starting another one of my old shows I have on DVD again. Maybe Angel or Roswell. Not sure which. Also thought some about writing my book, but I don't know if that'll happen this weekend or not. It's hard to tell when I don't care to schedule anything. Better that way, I think. No expectations. :)

I posted a poem and a short story on my other site for people to read. I left the link here for those who are interested. I'm not looking for anything by posting them online, but if you have a comment to leave, feel free to do so. I am interested in knowing what people think about what I write.

Other news in my world: I bought a ticket to Vegas for Spring Break. Not sure why, but I'll be there regardless. And, I convinced my mom to buy me Fall Out Boy tickets for my birthday present so now I am officially going with Stacy and that makes me happy.

I can't come up with anything else, but the topic of validation is still on my mind, so maybe you'll see something about that soon. For now, I go.

Songs to consider:

Running Up That Hill (Placebo)
Sail Away (Madrugada)